Ever look around and it feels like the world and their wife have their shit together apart from you?? I’m here to tell you that this is very much not the case.
Ever feel like every other parent around you seems to have more patience and tolerance than you?? I’m here to tell that this is very much..NOT THE CASE.
Some days you feel like you’re winning at parenting… and then there are days like today where you just don’t have it in you to put up a fight. They’ve been disobedient, unruly and no one deserves that treat less than they do.. but for the sake of some peace you give in. You are fully aware that you are making a rod for you own back. but in that moment, you simply don’t care. Let me tell you, that today.. I am that person.. I am YOU. On days like today I question myself and my parenting like no other. I wonder if other Mum’s have moments where they just don’t have the patience or energy to put up a fight, or they get judged on their children’s behaviour. I’m here to tell you that they do.. we do.. I DO. In a nutshell, I just can’t be arsed. I’m tired, carrying a child, size wise equivalent to a Pomeranian dog apparently and I just really am not in the mood for it and I will happily sit here and be honest with you about that because I know if you don’t feel like that today, there are days that you do and it is TOTALLY normal. On day’s like today being a parent is really difficult, but what I find even more difficult is feeling like I am the only parent that feels like it, so I just felt like I really wanted to put this out there so that maybe one other Mum will feel that little less crappy knowing that I am right there with you. With parenthood comes a lot of judgement and I’m not about that life and the day I started blogging I promised myself that from a parental perspective I would be nothing but honest because with all the highs and amazingness of parenthood comes the lows like today. My pictures may tell a different story because I enjoy photography, but the words behind them will always carry nothing but raw truth. Not so long ago I saw an interesting comment on Daily Mail – I know, please don’t judge.. and someone said ‘if you really knew how stressful parenthood could be, would you go back and do it all again’ .. and as I type this with Joseph sound asleep on the other sofa (hence the unruly behaviour.. that’s what happens when you wake up at 530) there is no question in my mind that I would, a million times over and over again! But that isn’t to say you get days like today where you just feel defeated.. and that is totally ok. I have come to learn that feeling like this doesn’t make you a bad parent. Infact, the fact that you care so much makes you the total opposite. So if you’re having a bit of a rubbish day, or know someone that is.. pass this on or send them to me because I truly believe that we are all in this together! Tonight.. drink the wine, eat that chocolate because you totally deserve it Mama!